to pray or not to pray

i always know i should pray about everything, unless i know from past wisdom what to do.  but right now i'm praying about my bike.  i'm not sure if i should keep it or if i should try to sell it.  it would be good to have to ride when Amal takes his naps, and i could even ride it to the gym during the day and work out.  i'm just not sure of what to do.  we have very limited space with only a room and bathroom to store it in, and a toddler that gets into everything.  the only thing that worries me is the possibility of the bike falling on my son.  i guess i need to talk to my husband about it too.  besides the bike dilemma i have gone to the gym once this week so far, and i plan to go tonight, i wanted to go last night but during the day i was feeling down.  about what?  i have no clue, i must be overwhelmed or just stressed about life in general.  i feel a lot better today.

diana

week eleven is just tomorrow

so i had another vacation of a week i guess.  i went to the gym once, i think,.  oh how life can get busy if you allow it to.  well i hope that my next week is good, and i hope in a couple of more weeks i will feel good about my progress when it comes to getting on that scale.  one good thing is that my work out pants are too big, they definitely fit they just have some extra room in them.  i'm pretty excited about that, that means i get to buy some new ones soon.  this is going to be short and sweet.

diana

blah, blah, blah

i keep telling myself that i'm going to keep an all around journal for food, exercise, emotional mood sorta stuff, and of course i haven't done it yet. i know i have a kid and i'm married, but you think i could find some sorta time. i think i just have to work harder. i definitely think that i'm scared to start a journal, i don't want to know what i'm eating, and how i'm feeling, how my workouts are going. i think i'm doing good, but if i started journaling i would probably find out that i'm totally slacking in some area. the motivater for me to start journaling is that i keep forgetting how long i've been on this crazy ride. i'm pretty sure all of you are getting a deal. i mean a two for one deal, this entry will recap my eighth and ninth week. so week eight i worked out three times, i think i've hit a plateau with losing, and just an all around feeling of i'm tired of doing this. but that's ok, cause i'm not stopping until the fat lady is gone. week nine was my vacation week, and as i write i'm still in Denver visiting my friend. the sad thing about this visit is that i've been sick for about half of my trip, so for a few days i haven't really been eating cause i'm sick. but i did work out once this week nine. what can you do when you and your kid have flu like symptons? not that much. the weather is beautiful out here though. week ten will be good, i think i'm going to mix up my cardio, and add some extra time and run maybe like ten to twenty minutes, so i'll be going for up to fifty minutes of cardio at the gym. i hope to start running in the morning with my son in tow too. well i'll be in San Diego tomorrow morning to start my week ten.
diana

this is harder than i thought

well this is an update from my week seven.  the sad thing is i have totally forgotten what i did, i know i went to the gym i think at least three times, and i ran once and i think i walked a few times.  i keep forgetting to start journaling about my food intake, i'm really bad at this kinda stuff.  i definitely see some changes in my body, and i'm going to be excited about them unlike the past when i couldn't stop thinking about how much weight i still needed to lose.  i just weaned my son from nursing in the past few weeks so this last few weeks has been harder for me because i've been emotional about not having the closeness with my son that i'm used to.  but it was definitely time.  for week nine i'm going to be out of town visiting old friends, i'm so excited.  her husband has a home gym that i will definitely be taking advantage of.  so i'm excited to change up my routine some while out of town.  we're going to Denver i've never been before i'm really excited.  just me and my son are going.  and i think when i finish this next six weeks i'm going to do a detox cleans with my little brother.  should be good, so i'll write about that in about four weeks.  i'm in week eight and i haven't gone to the gym yet, i'll probably go tonight.  i am having less of a crappy boring time on the elliptical machine thanks to Sarah's advice about bringing a magazine.  well i'll try to stay on top of this blogging thing better.  

diana